I was asked to speak with the young women today on how faith has gotten me through the changes we have faced recently. Wow how do you tell 14 and 15 year old girls that story in 10 minutes. How do you explain your life so simplified. Can it really even be done. Our life has become so complex can you break it down into gospel principles? I hope I did an all right job. As usual I was a wreck because our life has changed so much in the last year that we still go through the grief process regularly. I think it can be broken down to such a simple thing as faith. My life depends on it. If I didn't have faith I could not function. It gets me through the day and sometimes through the hour. Faith is what sustains me in my dark hours and what makes my heart sing during the joyful ones. With out the knowledge that this is God's plan for me and my family I would have fallen into a deep dark depression and I don't think I would have come out. Faith allows me to face each day knowing that I am loved and that this is God's will. It also lets me know that I am strong enough for the challenges I face. Our challenges are unique to us and for that I am grateful. There are so many out there that are far worse off than we are that I can't help be filled with gratitude for our situation. It is hard and trying and I wish I could get more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep at night but I wouldn't trade this for the world. I have learned how deep my own reserves are and how high I can be carried by my Heavenly Father. I could not do this without him. I think our families new motto is going to be from Elder Wirthlin in this last conference. Come what may, love it.
Since this has become sort of a journal for me as well as a way to let others know what's going on in our lives. I thought I'd post this more for myself than for others. I can go back and read it when I'm having a rough time or a bad night.